I first learned about Thomas Merton when making several trips to Bardstown, Kentucky (for other reasons you may be able to deduce). Merton, a monk, author, and theologian, lived in a Catholic monastery near Bardstown, known for its nature trails, fruitcake, and bourbon fudge. Anyway, I went for the fudge and learned about Merton. And, in the gift shop, I of course bought abook or two. This prayer is from Thoughts in Solit
“My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing … And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost … I will not fear, for you are ever with me.”
If you’ve never prayed these words, or something like them, you probably haven’t lived very long.
These words, from someone who committed his life to God, are comforting … because I share his feelings and I want the same trust in God. I want guaranteed outcomes, and instead, God often gives just enough light for the next step. Faith isn’t nearly as much about knowing as it is about trusting.
If today feels uncertain, perhaps Merton’s prayer can become your own. You don’t have to know where you’re going. You simply have to trust the God who knows and is with you.
“I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.”
May that be enough for today.
